Yes... can't spell it without 'U' which is me now! So i m the failure totally now!
I m such a disappointment in myself now! Not getting it yet i dun noe why is it! But i think muz be due to The same reason agaiN! I hate it... I work hard yet i fail badly again! Laugh all u wanna ppl... i m going to give up soon, for there is nothing for me to hold on anymore! The dream i wanna getting further away from me and the effort i have put in all came crushing down on to me noW! Heart feel so heavy and stress. guess Let me jus live the way i m now, feeling so useless n helpless!
Once again i m lost in direction... wish to be alone. Think of what i wannna, i now more than afraid than anyone or anything!

why am i feeling so tired... Why am i feel numb to e surroundings... Just hu can tell me why am i feeling such an uncomfortable way now... Tired***

Dream... Everyone know their dream and will reach for it, but what about mine?

I feel meaningless in everything, kill me for who i m now cause i don't like it this way!

- The PUSH is no longer there for me to reach, it only seems to be getting further from me...

So near yet so far, the harder i move forward, i m just getting tired, unable to grasp what i wanna-

Motivation, encouragment, dreams, Aim, goal...watever it is, no longer appear to me!

Flight is all i have now...

** DISAPPOINTMENT IN MYSELF**

A big clap for myself cause i make a big step out: Cutting my hair till so short... is consider damn short for me! Gosh in the first place i been thinking but i think i need a new style! Hair has been messy and no style is nice... so i thought short will be good! So much courage i took but is good... nv regret and first time my grandma say this hair good...look prettier lol. She praise me wor. haha...
Hmmm Find around for a good hairstylist cause cut short is not a joke, cannot be reversible so i must consider it carefully... lol Found a good one recommemded by chuanqin's sister... At Actpoint orchard.His name is ANSON! Come to think abt it i m fated to cut there as last time i wanna to go, just that i worried too ex but now i eventually went in! I love this haircut totally... I think suit me hehe... okie better don't zhi lian here! hehee... Hope this nice cut last me long wor :P From this length... till Yup is this short! haha... see the side!

I m in a totally lost world! I go thru daily routine with no life... Heart seems to be numb!

Disappointed in my performance, regardless is studies, result or training! Just totally disappointed in myself...

Hard work, hard work and ur result shall be paid off... Is it true? Well is a PACK OF LIES!
well let me share with u why: Just got my result and saw my posting result, a nice and fucking C+ for the credit 14! yeah is 14 not little but alot! and yes i got c, laugh all u wanna... cuz i think i m laughing at myself now too... hahaha... stupid joyce!
To think u can get this type of result for ur attachment! U... sucks...

Honestly I m not demanding that i need or deserve an A but surely not an C+ cause all the comment given by the lecture in the book at the end of the posting is, well u have done well... u read n sign! So here is wat the Load of bullshit they say to me...
Joyce is a steady, fast learner, hardwork, seek opportunities to skills, proactive, confidence in her work, motivated and dillgent, keep up the good work! So nice comment tat make ur day WOW or yesh is a good posting... haha but aware this are all just a PACK OF LIES! Behind show ur result it become C....the teacher are telling me to keep up the good work of c grade!
To whoever have write the comment, i dun noe if u are blind or ur calculation got problem... if i am lousy, need improvement, pls tell me and i m willing to change with grace and accept my mistake. Dun tell me fucking bullshit to make my day cuz it hurt at the end of the day! NOT jus a simple hurt but also u make me doubt my abilities to strive for harder result! No reinforcement but well done negative reinforcement! And i m dead without a reason, even a patient whu die suddenly, have the rights to know the death cause but wat abt me... i m now like a ghost whu cannot reborn cuz i m having angry and unsolve question here!! how did i die from this? no one answer this question jus tell me work hard! STOP PLS... each time u tell me to work harder i doubt my abilities more cuz i know i have done all my best, yet this is the result.. HOW! tell me lah!
Worst thing... went to find the head n here is wat she say!
Laugh or cry... when ur head in charge tell u, DO YOU KNOW ACTAULLY C+ IS ALSO A GOOD GRADE! hahaha.... is the most funny joke i ever hear already! HEllo i m not student tat will be happy with just a C+ grade! Wake up ur mind can... is discriminating me when u say such things to me... ask me how is my posting, did i do well... my studies leh... ask me so much yet dun tell me the reason jus say continue to work harder...
How to work harder...have i done badly in studies? NO, Cca? NO also, attachment oh this is good! FUCKING HEll entertain me... den how to go further when i did my best this is wat i get! U not only pull my grade down but also my doubt! Now i m having so much doubt... i dun noe... feel so empty mind with jus the C+ in it.. hate myself! But well all the best to u cuz many ppl say tat why teacher sit in office, jus get paid! SIT and hope u get pressure sore soon!!!!!
Den u will noe wat nursing care can i provide!

NYP SYSTEM JUST SUCK lah.... i will remember watever happen de.... i hate NYP! did i make the right choice by going in.. i think i did...

okie i m stupid.. dunnoe how to upload a real player which i have download from youtube... anyway is this song (no suprise) by daughtry.... nice n sweet song.

Lyrics i have got here....

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and roundAnd now I think that I've got it all downAnd as I say it louder I love how it soundsCause I'm not taking the easy way outNot wrapping this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason why...

It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

It came out like a river once I let it outWhen I thought that I wouldn't know howHeld onto it forever just pushing it downFelt so good to let go of it nowNot wrapping this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason whyIt's NO SURPRISE

I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayThere's nothing here in this heart left to borrowThere's nothing here in this soul left to sayDon't be surprised when we hate this tomorrowGod know we tried to find an easier way[ Daughtry Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] Yeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Our favorite place we used to goThe warm embrace that no one knowsThe loving look that's left your eyesThat's why this comes as no, as NO SURPRISEIf I could see the future and how this plays outI bet it's better than where we are nowBut after going through this, it's easier to see the reason whyIt's NO SURPRISE

I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISEThe kiss goodnight, it comes with meBoth wrong and right, our memoriesThe whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keepOur favorite place we used to goThe warm embrace that no one knowsThe loving look that's left your eyesBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Meaningful song for me... i been hearing... but i still have no answer! Why!

>JOYCE HO<
>14 JULY <
>Joyce_ted@hotmail.com <
__LOVE__ DRAGONBOATING & Currently Kayaking
__LOVE__ SUN-TANNING
__LOVE__ MY ZHU_TOU CHUANQIN
__LOVE__ ORANGE COLOUR
__LOVE__ FRIENDS
__LOVE__ SEA SPORTS: DIVING
__LOVE__ GOD FOR CREATING MI


HATE FAMILY..
HATE PPL WHO PUSH E BLAME AROUND
HATE LIFE CUZ IS SO SUX
HATE TO BE ALONE HAIZ

Chuan qin | Ai Sing | Landy
Adeline | Xiao yan | Sabrina
Joanna | Jing ting | Kelvin
sherlyna | Samantha | Melissa
Jasmine |

Yes... can't spell it without 'U' which is me now! So i m the failure totally now!
I m such a disappointment in myself now! Not getting it yet i dun noe why is it! But i think muz be due to The same reason agaiN! I hate it... I work hard yet i fail badly again! Laugh all u wanna ppl... i m going to give up soon, for there is nothing for me to hold on anymore! The dream i wanna getting further away from me and the effort i have put in all came crushing down on to me noW! Heart feel so heavy and stress. guess Let me jus live the way i m now, feeling so useless n helpless!
Once again i m lost in direction... wish to be alone. Think of what i wannna, i now more than afraid than anyone or anything!

why am i feeling so tired... Why am i feel numb to e surroundings... Just hu can tell me why am i feeling such an uncomfortable way now... Tired***

Dream... Everyone know their dream and will reach for it, but what about mine?

I feel meaningless in everything, kill me for who i m now cause i don't like it this way!

- The PUSH is no longer there for me to reach, it only seems to be getting further from me...

So near yet so far, the harder i move forward, i m just getting tired, unable to grasp what i wanna-

Motivation, encouragment, dreams, Aim, goal...watever it is, no longer appear to me!

Flight is all i have now...

** DISAPPOINTMENT IN MYSELF**

A big clap for myself cause i make a big step out: Cutting my hair till so short... is consider damn short for me! Gosh in the first place i been thinking but i think i need a new style! Hair has been messy and no style is nice... so i thought short will be good! So much courage i took but is good... nv regret and first time my grandma say this hair good...look prettier lol. She praise me wor. haha...
Hmmm Find around for a good hairstylist cause cut short is not a joke, cannot be reversible so i must consider it carefully... lol Found a good one recommemded by chuanqin's sister... At Actpoint orchard.His name is ANSON! Come to think abt it i m fated to cut there as last time i wanna to go, just that i worried too ex but now i eventually went in! I love this haircut totally... I think suit me hehe... okie better don't zhi lian here! hehee... Hope this nice cut last me long wor :P From this length... till Yup is this short! haha... see the side!

I m in a totally lost world! I go thru daily routine with no life... Heart seems to be numb!

Disappointed in my performance, regardless is studies, result or training! Just totally disappointed in myself...

Hard work, hard work and ur result shall be paid off... Is it true? Well is a PACK OF LIES!
well let me share with u why: Just got my result and saw my posting result, a nice and fucking C+ for the credit 14! yeah is 14 not little but alot! and yes i got c, laugh all u wanna... cuz i think i m laughing at myself now too... hahaha... stupid joyce!
To think u can get this type of result for ur attachment! U... sucks...

Honestly I m not demanding that i need or deserve an A but surely not an C+ cause all the comment given by the lecture in the book at the end of the posting is, well u have done well... u read n sign! So here is wat the Load of bullshit they say to me...
Joyce is a steady, fast learner, hardwork, seek opportunities to skills, proactive, confidence in her work, motivated and dillgent, keep up the good work! So nice comment tat make ur day WOW or yesh is a good posting... haha but aware this are all just a PACK OF LIES! Behind show ur result it become C....the teacher are telling me to keep up the good work of c grade!
To whoever have write the comment, i dun noe if u are blind or ur calculation got problem... if i am lousy, need improvement, pls tell me and i m willing to change with grace and accept my mistake. Dun tell me fucking bullshit to make my day cuz it hurt at the end of the day! NOT jus a simple hurt but also u make me doubt my abilities to strive for harder result! No reinforcement but well done negative reinforcement! And i m dead without a reason, even a patient whu die suddenly, have the rights to know the death cause but wat abt me... i m now like a ghost whu cannot reborn cuz i m having angry and unsolve question here!! how did i die from this? no one answer this question jus tell me work hard! STOP PLS... each time u tell me to work harder i doubt my abilities more cuz i know i have done all my best, yet this is the result.. HOW! tell me lah!
Worst thing... went to find the head n here is wat she say!
Laugh or cry... when ur head in charge tell u, DO YOU KNOW ACTAULLY C+ IS ALSO A GOOD GRADE! hahaha.... is the most funny joke i ever hear already! HEllo i m not student tat will be happy with just a C+ grade! Wake up ur mind can... is discriminating me when u say such things to me... ask me how is my posting, did i do well... my studies leh... ask me so much yet dun tell me the reason jus say continue to work harder...
How to work harder...have i done badly in studies? NO, Cca? NO also, attachment oh this is good! FUCKING HEll entertain me... den how to go further when i did my best this is wat i get! U not only pull my grade down but also my doubt! Now i m having so much doubt... i dun noe... feel so empty mind with jus the C+ in it.. hate myself! But well all the best to u cuz many ppl say tat why teacher sit in office, jus get paid! SIT and hope u get pressure sore soon!!!!!
Den u will noe wat nursing care can i provide!

NYP SYSTEM JUST SUCK lah.... i will remember watever happen de.... i hate NYP! did i make the right choice by going in.. i think i did...

okie i m stupid.. dunnoe how to upload a real player which i have download from youtube... anyway is this song (no suprise) by daughtry.... nice n sweet song.

Lyrics i have got here....

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and roundAnd now I think that I've got it all downAnd as I say it louder I love how it soundsCause I'm not taking the easy way outNot wrapping this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason why...

It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

It came out like a river once I let it outWhen I thought that I wouldn't know howHeld onto it forever just pushing it downFelt so good to let go of it nowNot wrapping this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason whyIt's NO SURPRISE

I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayThere's nothing here in this heart left to borrowThere's nothing here in this soul left to sayDon't be surprised when we hate this tomorrowGod know we tried to find an easier way[ Daughtry Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] Yeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Our favorite place we used to goThe warm embrace that no one knowsThe loving look that's left your eyesThat's why this comes as no, as NO SURPRISEIf I could see the future and how this plays outI bet it's better than where we are nowBut after going through this, it's easier to see the reason whyIt's NO SURPRISE

I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISEThe kiss goodnight, it comes with meBoth wrong and right, our memoriesThe whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keepOur favorite place we used to goThe warm embrace that no one knowsThe loving look that's left your eyesBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Meaningful song for me... i been hearing... but i still have no answer! Why!