I m in a totally lost world! I go thru daily routine with no life... Heart seems to be numb!
Disappointed in my performance, regardless is studies, result or training! Just totally disappointed in myself...
Hard work, hard work and ur result shall be paid off... Is it true? Well is a PACK OF LIES!
well let me share with u why: Just got my result and saw my posting result, a nice and fucking C+ for the credit 14! yeah is 14 not little but alot! and yes i got c, laugh all u wanna... cuz i think i m laughing at myself now too... hahaha... stupid joyce!
To think u can get this type of result for ur attachment! U... sucks...
Honestly I m not demanding that i need or deserve an A but surely not an C+ cause all the comment given by the lecture in the book at the end of the posting is, well u have done well... u read n sign! So here is wat the Load of bullshit they say to me...
Joyce is a steady, fast learner, hardwork, seek opportunities to skills, proactive, confidence in her work, motivated and dillgent, keep up the good work! So nice comment tat make ur day WOW or yesh is a good posting... haha but aware this are all just a PACK OF LIES! Behind show ur result it become C....the teacher are telling me to keep up the good work of c grade!
To whoever have write the comment, i dun noe if u are blind or ur calculation got problem... if i am lousy, need improvement, pls tell me and i m willing to change with grace and accept my mistake. Dun tell me fucking bullshit to make my day cuz it hurt at the end of the day! NOT jus a simple hurt but also u make me doubt my abilities to strive for harder result! No reinforcement but well done negative reinforcement! And i m dead without a reason, even a patient whu die suddenly, have the rights to know the death cause but wat abt me... i m now like a ghost whu cannot reborn cuz i m having angry and unsolve question here!! how did i die from this? no one answer this question jus tell me work hard! STOP PLS... each time u tell me to work harder i doubt my abilities more cuz i know i have done all my best, yet this is the result.. HOW! tell me lah!
Worst thing... went to find the head n here is wat she say!
Laugh or cry... when ur head in charge tell u, DO YOU KNOW ACTAULLY C+ IS ALSO A GOOD GRADE! hahaha.... is the most funny joke i ever hear already! HEllo i m not student tat will be happy with just a C+ grade! Wake up ur mind can... is discriminating me when u say such things to me... ask me how is my posting, did i do well... my studies leh... ask me so much yet dun tell me the reason jus say continue to work harder...
How to work harder...have i done badly in studies? NO, Cca? NO also, attachment oh this is good! FUCKING HEll entertain me... den how to go further when i did my best this is wat i get! U not only pull my grade down but also my doubt! Now i m having so much doubt... i dun noe... feel so empty mind with jus the C+ in it.. hate myself! But well all the best to u cuz many ppl say tat why teacher sit in office, jus get paid! SIT and hope u get pressure sore soon!!!!!
Den u will noe wat nursing care can i provide!
NYP SYSTEM JUST SUCK lah.... i will remember watever happen de.... i hate NYP! did i make the right choice by going in.. i think i did...
okie i m stupid.. dunnoe how to upload a real player which i have download from youtube... anyway is this song (no suprise) by daughtry.... nice n sweet song.
Lyrics i have got here....
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and roundAnd now I think that I've got it all downAnd as I say it louder I love how it soundsCause I'm not taking the easy way outNot wrapping this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason why...
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
It came out like a river once I let it outWhen I thought that I wouldn't know howHeld onto it forever just pushing it downFelt so good to let go of it nowNot wrapping this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason whyIt's NO SURPRISE
I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayThere's nothing here in this heart left to borrowThere's nothing here in this soul left to sayDon't be surprised when we hate this tomorrowGod know we tried to find an easier way[ Daughtry Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] Yeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
Our favorite place we used to goThe warm embrace that no one knowsThe loving look that's left your eyesThat's why this comes as no, as NO SURPRISEIf I could see the future and how this plays outI bet it's better than where we are nowBut after going through this, it's easier to see the reason whyIt's NO SURPRISE
I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISEThe kiss goodnight, it comes with meBoth wrong and right, our memoriesThe whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keepOur favorite place we used to goThe warm embrace that no one knowsThe loving look that's left your eyesBut I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
Meaningful song for me... i been hearing... but i still have no answer! Why!
Attachment is down to left with 3 weeks! Kind of long cuz tat ward is not nice to be in at all! Everything is so strict and so stress, not easy to score with. I m kind of worry cuz this posting i m not interest at all!
Actually i jus hope everything end fast so i can fully concentrate on wat i wanna... Pls move on with the days asap...i wish.
Sorry... I dun noe why things turn up to be like this also! I can't answer to ur question and i m in a loss myself too.. I went to church hoping to have an answer to everything but still i feel confuse. I dun wish to run away but i dun noe how to face you.
