At the moment, my heart is fill with lots of mix feeling... Honestly looking at you i don't know where do i really stand in your heart or am i just the extra one? I seriously don't know.. tears are uncontrol suddenly.! This mix feeling is brining me down to the ground... Standing next to you yet i feel so far apart, stranger feeling. Too others eyes i m jus not close but pretend to be one or is it me, myself that have over step into ur life???
I should step back, perhaps it allow me to see things better. Now with this reason, the distance cannot be cover up instead it grow further apart. Looking at how much you love it, i knew it already. I shouldn't be here in the first place...Well this is bad things jus keep repeating... Am i jus tat lousy? Or in me this is what i deserve?
I dun wish to give up on you cause you give me courage, encouragement, let me stay on to push... I seriously don't know. The harder i try to hold on to you, the feeling of losing is greater and it scare me off... I m jus tat weak!...
ARRGGG.... Stop this mix feeling pls! Pls...
If you don't have the strength to move on, I give you a lending hands...
If you don't have the mood to move on, I will cheer you up...
If you don't have any friends, I will stay on by your side...
If you don't have confidence, I will tell you i m your confidence.
If you have no one to trust, Pls trust in me...
If no one to show loved, I will tell you, I love you...
If the world change, I won't...
If you are down, I will stay by you...
No matter what happen, I make the difference in your life. :)
Is there such good things... haha, Shit emo stop coming back pls...
Anyway k4 girls... no matter what we are in this together, no one is to leave and hope we shall be happy at the end of the finish line!
Okie, Nwcc is so soon and yet i think i been very negative this few weeks! Perharps due to stress ever since school restart from attachment cum 2weeks holidays! Don't even feel like going back school but Work is pile up till i hardly can breathe! well is getting worse as exam are coming and so many presenation next week! Gosh... Sleeping late at 4 to 5 am in the morning is becoming a habbit due to rush my project ensure is on the right track! Training has also been on n off for my performance, honestly i m just disappointed in myself till last nite... a wake up call mah i would say....
Yesterday mel came to training to take excuse letter. We had a chat on how good qifang n her partner even with jus 3 training, no more confidence i said. Just dun go race...I think kind of scare her too. When walk to the toilet, before mel left, she stood there and wait to say: Joyce wo xian zhou, quack dian jiang ni you confidence: (Joyce quick tell me you got confidence or not...)
I don't know how to reply to her and jus ask her hurry go back. Sorry Mel, but i think over it :)
- Now this blog is specially delicate to all NWCC girls include my new partner:)
*To Mel: Honestly i don't know how well we are doing or how much confidence we have! I scare i m a burden to you and at the same time i m worry as i been cutting down training due to my studies stuff...I feel lousy and pulling u down. I can see from you that you have alot of confidence in me n our k2. I think over n over and now I want to shout out to you loud and clear , I DO HAVE THE CONFIDENCE In OUR K2! Really... though our pairing up is last min n not many training, i believe as long as we can focus n trust in each other tat is part of winning! Of cuz i do wish to bring u together to win a medal for urself n me but winning not the medal but finish e race without any regret is the best result we can show to coach & if we have medal tat will be even better :) We don't pressurize ourself too much, jus concentrate on getting into finals and see the end result. Okie...
* To Sher & Jelly
Just realise dun have pic with jelly! Must take at race!!
All the hardwork of training, we must show our result. Training is little and all e trouble we went thru, we must not let it go down e drain... Jia you for each events and keep thinking what u see at the end of the race :) it helps to motivate...
** Jing and Ai xing
Are you still hungry for medal?? Well I DO! I Need more... before that,
Thank, thank alot for all the concern and advise you two have been giving to me during this period when i keep emo n negative! Really very touch and sorry to keep pulling myself down despite everything! But now i won't, hopefully hehe... i will buck up! I Must win the medal for all the training i have gone thru and THE K4 Medal,...even is one event that the three j's is going, Tell u gals, I want it badly, i m hungry for it and i believe the two of u alsO! We shall go grab it down at the end of 200m :) Tat a deal, when u are tired, think of each other like how we do for NCC! We shall have the smile at the end and shout out yesh!!
So NWCC girls, get prepare for a tough fight at this weekend and grab down the medals! Hungry.... Together nv nv ever think of giving up, only to push on and stay with the crew till the end! I believe each of us can do it! ALL the way~~
** FYP, ATTACHMENT, STUDY, pls pls rest well and early for saturday.... Eat more carbo this few days n drink up lots!
No longer can i have the thoughts to give up or say i got no confidence! I together with mel shall go grab the medal we long wanted! Just give us this chance:)
No time to continue my part two birthday but shall fine time upload the pictures i promise myself:)... Meanwhile e biggest n greatest fear is here :( Less than a month left n yet to start studying, still busy with my project! Arrggg... god give me more memory pls to storage my studies knowledge for exam! And one more thing is so many paper is at 4pm which i dun like it cuz make me more excited n sianz to go exam already... But got to grab hold anytime to study...
Name : HO NUO, JOYCE (Adm No. : 085106Q) Course : DIPLOMA IN NURSING (HSDF01)
Examination Timetable - Academic Year 2009/2010 Semester 1
DATE
TIME
MODULE
MODULE DESCRIPTION (PAPER NAME)
GRP
VENUE
SEAT
20-AUG-09 (THU)
09:00AM - 11:00AM
HS2131
ABNORMAL PSYCHOLOGY & BEHAVIOURAL MOD
12
G.221 (Z1)
282
Shifu, your birthday, hope u will bring me good luck lol! Shall owe u ur gift n celebrate post belated birthday! Tat a deal
21-AUG-09 (FRI)
04:00PM - 05:00PM
HS2129
PHARMACOLOGY 1
12
G.221 (Z3)
150
24-AUG-09 (MON)
04:00PM - 06:00PM
HS2122
ADULT NURSING 1
12
A.339
258
26-AUG-09 (WED)
09:00AM - 11:00AM
HS2127
BIOLOGICAL SCIENCE 2A
12
A.339
277
28-AUG-09 (FRI)
09:00AM - 11:00AM
HS2123
MENTAL HEALTH NURSING
12
G.221 (Z3)
4Legend for Venue :
VENUE
DESCRIPTION
LOCATION
A.339
NYP Lounge
Block A, Level 3, Room A.339
G.221 (Z1)
Sports Hall (Zone 1)
Block G, Level 2 [Sports Hall (Z1)]
G.221 (Z3)
Sports Hall (Zone 3)
Block G, Level 2 [Sports Hall (Z3)]
I swear... this year i have the best birthday celebration! Cannot compare to my 21st cuz they make me backtrack time to 21... Hehe
Seriously it consists with all e love i receive from Dear, My team mate senior and juniors and not forgetting my classmate! Wow.. is totally sweetness for me till i think i can't stop smiling nor stop thinking! ** Suffer from diabetes but worth it :p
To keep all this memories, let me share with everyone :)
1st) Intro the head master (Mr Lim Chuan qin aka my dear) who is in charge behind all these surprise :
His plan was to have dinner with him only, but when i reach the place.... He said he make reservation and the waitress say for how many? He reply with his finger 11 and the waitress say oh your friends is here already! I am like where got friends,
den i turn i saw....
My beloved team mate aka as his accomplice :
Kelvin, Weiyi, Jing, Jon, Marcus, Enkai, Junwei, Ax, Kun!
With a birthday cake n started singing birthday song.
They had been together with this plan for long time, i think after ncc! Yet they manage to hide it so well, not bad ar my team mate when tell white lie... lol But happy to see them!
I am really touch and shock! Indeed a big surprise to me to see them cuz dun expect to celebrate with them. Follow on is gift time and Had dinner. Really isn't worth the money for some of them but enjoy the process of taking pictures with the prolaxy (sorry dun noe how to spell lol) camera which dear borrow!
Enjoy:
Bracist
-Jing look damn stern, cuz she scare she blink the eyes! Lol
Part one surprise :)
Really want to thank him for planning! A sweet bf i have! Thank fat dear... haha
He been complaining that i neglect him yet at the same time he knows what i really want!
I simply love the gift alot! Can't stop looking...
-The J's-
This is a shock pic cuz we ask the waitress to take! She jus sudden press n there is goes $1.30
The Two other J who i really want to say THANK! Thank for e support in rowing, when i m emo, down with stress, discourage and really thank god u ppl are around! All the trust and courage u ppl give me to carry on n move to a higher level!
My Batch: Thank for the push each time n support together with encouragement! Without u guys, i wouldn't be here!
Overall i lost of wat to say, jus know i Had alot of fun... Not sure abt the rest but still i wanna to say a big thank to everyone of u for the gift ( the bag i always want) But i feel bad, cuz all of us are so poor! sorry abt it... i will make full use n take good care of the bag!
made me feel the gift!
Specially made by the 3 J's: Jing ting, Jon, Jaslyn
I love it, one n only in singapore
Gift from my shifu :) Oh ya n come with a free meal! lol
Okie tat a long blog...
This is just part one of the celebration... stay tune with me too see wat is part 2...
To be continue :)
Okie, Nwcc is so soon and yet i think i been very negative this few weeks! Perharps due to stress ever since school restart from attachment cum 2weeks holidays! Don't even feel like going back school but Work is pile up till i hardly can breathe! well is getting worse as exam are coming and so many presenation next week! Gosh... Sleeping late at 4 to 5 am in the morning is becoming a habbit due to rush my project ensure is on the right track! Training has also been on n off for my performance, honestly i m just disappointed in myself till last nite... a wake up call mah i would say.... 
Bracist
This is a shock pic cuz we ask the waitress to take! She jus sudden press n there is goes $1.30
The Two other J who i really want to say THANK! Thank for e support in rowing, when i m emo, down with stress, discourage and really thank god u ppl are around! All the trust and courage u ppl give me to carry on n move to a higher level!
