Well... No one bother how do i really feel but nothing better to do or someone to do i jus going to shit it all out on my lame blog... hehe... poor blog :)
But nvm lah is all abt my life moment mah same as my title.
So how am i feeling at this moment after exam. Yup though is after exam i m sianz, this feelings is killing me since e sem start and till today! Hunting me like a ghost...
Apathy.
Jus this feeling... meaning of this is also called impassivity or perfunctoriness~~ is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation and passion. An apathetic individual has an absence of interest or concern to emotional, social, or physical life. They may also exhibit an insensibility or sluggishness.
My life seems to be on very routine. Everyday doing the same things, but in the past i seems to be enjoying it as a process of life and wanna it even more badly! How tired it is, is worth the well... Now i seriously dun noe. Many ppl say is tired and i think too much or infact no one knows or really bother to understand! Each for their own i thinks... hmmmm
Jus two weeks of exam, i been thinking alot! Perhaps due to i din do well. I know myself this time i hope wont need to retake any paper! I jus can't concentrate at all...Mind memory is so full n heavy.
Did a small talk with coach and he say, LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE HAVING SO MUCH STRESS FOR MYSELF.
is it mah... m i demanding too much from myself in everything i do? Regardless is bf, sch, family or even rowing... is it really too much for me to take it anymore? Tat cause the breakdown now? I dun noe.... is like i m honestly 360 degree upside down leading myself to walk this path... Back to training i dun noe why, i jus finding more excuse to miss, to not to train,and unable to keep with the rest is a big stress too... High up is jus too high for me to be there, as there got no space for me. I m jus extra and i see ppl getting further n further away from me. I m tired of catching up with the pace...
Attachment start on monday for one month, i m not waiting nor do i wish to attent! I wanan to go away from here...i dun noe why! I hate it..jus jate every little single things i m doing now.
Haiz... away for a moment of ...meaningless
