Am i still the one who i use to be...can everything be as simple as i think? Suddenly Take some time off and deep thinking! Looking back...

For the past one year in my poly life, these are the people who i spend most of my time with beside dear and classmate! From this team i learnt alot from each individual ,meet a different coach but both same so soft hearted and experience different feelings compare to Dragonboat!

** But am i enjoying it?... Am i Hungry for more winning? Who can tell me if it still in me? Or is it lost, Totally drained! Nowadays i feel tired more n more easily than before...sickness is coming nearer to me,pain, ache are all over my body now... I wish and hope i can run away from training, finding all type of excuses for myself...All these jus make me start to feel lonely and nothing seems to brighten up my day! Sadness seems to be filling in more faster than i expect... Am I at the right track doing the right things... Do i belong to here or somewhere esle suit me more?? To you i seems jus a threat in all my surrounding?? I don't wish to take up anymore pressure from anything, Can i hope for a peace or jus leave without a words...JOYCE HO Is this wat i really hope for? Really...

I don't wanna to disappoint myself if i choose to let go yet i am afraid I am not up to standard, falling is tough and painful! Don't wish to face all these cause i simply no motivation to move up! Ahead of me, the road seems dark, who can give a lending hands to pull me up! All for their own, in this world only the strongest survice, the weakest are left to die! Is it true about all human? Where is feelings for touch...

Arrgg....