At the moment, my heart is fill with lots of mix feeling... Honestly looking at you i don't know where do i really stand in your heart or am i just the extra one? I seriously don't know.. tears are uncontrol suddenly.! This mix feeling is brining me down to the ground... Standing next to you yet i feel so far apart, stranger feeling. Too others eyes i m jus not close but pretend to be one or is it me, myself that have over step into ur life???
I should step back, perhaps it allow me to see things better. Now with this reason, the distance cannot be cover up instead it grow further apart. Looking at how much you love it, i knew it already. I shouldn't be here in the first place...Well this is bad things jus keep repeating... Am i jus tat lousy? Or in me this is what i deserve?
I dun wish to give up on you cause you give me courage, encouragement, let me stay on to push... I seriously don't know. The harder i try to hold on to you, the feeling of losing is greater and it scare me off... I m jus tat weak!...
ARRGGG.... Stop this mix feeling pls! Pls...
